May 2WW

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Kinney
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Re: May 2WW

#26 Post by Kinney » Fri May 10, 2019 12:05 pm

Oh Nikki, I've been thinking of you. So sorry to hear this sad news.
My heart is breaking for you, I hope you get some answers soon. x

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Re: May 2WW

#27 Post by Benson » Fri May 10, 2019 12:07 pm

I'm so sorry to hear that. I really hope your last embryo works! But even if it doesn't, please remember you are not alone and there are people out there who have gone through similar things who you can talk to and support one another.

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Re: May 2WW

#28 Post by KatieS » Fri May 10, 2019 1:50 pm

I’m so sorry to hear Nikki. Thinking of you loads xxx

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Re: May 2WW

#29 Post by Ali81 » Fri May 10, 2019 7:11 pm

Hi Nikki

I’m so so sorry to hear your news, it’s just heartbreaking. You just have to listen to the advice of your clinicians. I do hope you get some answers soon.
I hope and pray you last embie is the one. Stay strong, sending lots of love xxx

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Re: May 2WW

#30 Post by mollymartha » Sat May 11, 2019 5:51 pm

im so so sorry nikki its sad news for you again honestly my heart goes out to there are no words to ease your pain or hurt I ad 3 bfns in 8 weeks on my iuis and its just really really horrible hard and unbearable upset I wish I could wave a magic wand and no lady had to go through this awful nightmare when ivf works its truly an absolute miracle when it doesn't it ca break you and leave emotion scars that will never heal please be very gentle on yourself you and your body have been through so much take it easy, and I really hope your clinic can try and find out whats going on, I honestly hope your last embryo is The One that wil give you your much awaited little miracle and your bfp you just never know the time you give up could be the time that was meant to be... sending strength calm and positivity your way x
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Re: May 2WW

#31 Post by Nikki87 » Sun May 12, 2019 11:52 am

Thank you lovely ladies for all your advice, thoughts and well wishes. I am a little better today, we possibly have some steps forward so not all hope is lost yet x
Keep me posted on your own results I will be keeping my fingers crossed for you all.
Best wishes. Xx

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Re: May 2WW

#32 Post by mollymartha » Mon May 13, 2019 4:02 pm

glad you are feeling a little stronger today Nikki my heart honestly breaks for you , a bfn is just an awful reality in this journey, I hope you get a bit stronger each day it will take time to try and pick yourself up again, its al we can do after hitting rock bottom again! im glad to hear you already feel like you may have a few steps forward you can take in a positive direction so bet of luck with that start a new chapter and hoping everything finally work out for you very soon, if its anyones turn next , it has to be yours! x
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Re: May 2WW

#33 Post by Kinney » Wed May 15, 2019 10:56 am

BFN for us too.

It's really hard when we had our hopes pinned on it but we're so grateful that we have a frostie so we're going to try again when we can.
Wow this IVF stuff is hard, hey?

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Re: May 2WW

#34 Post by Wilosc18 » Wed May 15, 2019 12:34 pm

Thinking of you both Nikki and Kinney, it’s such an awful thing to have to go through. Sending you all the luck in the world for your next go! Xx

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Re: May 2WW

#35 Post by mollymartha » Wed May 15, 2019 3:53 pm

so so sorry about your bfn kinney it really awful isn't it jt the worst and such a sad day, there are no words to help you, but take it easy take your time and be gentle on yourselves, that's one positive you have your precious frostie so atleast you have hope for the future yet, yes very very tough this whole ivf journey one of extreme highs and extreme lows!! we are al in the ride together so hang on in there I hope it will be your turn next stay positive have a good cry if you need to, know tat you really aren't alone we are al here to share the happy bfps aswell ad the sad days of bfns thinking of you x
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Re: May 2WW

#36 Post by Kelly1982 » Thu May 23, 2019 5:29 pm

Hei Mollymartha thanks for your reply. No am not sure what causing the milk but I don’t remember having it with my son. I just remember the milk never completely went after stopping breastfeeding. But I don’t know if the milk completely go when you get pregnant again.
😘😘🙏🏻😍what a fantastic news that you have now have 6 blastocyst on the ice. How blessed are you hay. I bet you will sleep like a baby tonight. Try and not work too hard . Here the weather is awful rain all day today !! And windy. Typical Norwegian weather.
Yes I think I will see how I feel on Saturday. If I feel positive then I will go and buy pregnancy test. Yes am still hopeful and prayerful. 🙏🏻 I wish you a fab evening Much love 😘
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Re: May 2WW

#37 Post by Wilosc18 » Sat May 25, 2019 8:55 am

Morning Everyone,

Today is our OTD and I’m so happy to say it’s BFP for us! We’re so surprised, we really didn’t expect to be so lucky and for it to work first time!

X

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Re: May 2WW

#38 Post by mollymartha » Sat May 25, 2019 4:04 pm

hi wilosc wow huge congratulations for you that's amazing news!!! you must be so happy surprised and thrilled, hope al goes realy well for you wishinb you a happy healthy 9 months

how are you doing now Kelly will you test again after all I have replied on the other thread x
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Re: May 2WW

#39 Post by Kelly1982 » Sat May 25, 2019 10:51 pm

Mollymartha Hei hei
Am ok stressed out a lot atm. Am so sorry am not so great at bad news. It takes me a while to absorb it all .I have been spotting since afternoon. Pink ish reddish blood. So am kind of thinking that’s it !! It’s not a lot but just enough on the pantry liner. So I guess that’s it for me. THANKYOU so much for checking on me. I wish you all the best mollymartha. You deserve it 🙏🏻
Well I doubt it’s implantation bleeding as surely I have passed the dates for that. My otd was today
I had ET 15th so today 25 was otd.

This process is soo hard 😢
(ICSI cycle July/August 2016) OTD 10.08.2016 BFP
Baby boy born 30 March 2017
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Re: May 2WW

#40 Post by Kelly1982 » Sat May 25, 2019 10:56 pm

Wilosc18
Congratulations for BFP 😘
I wish you all the best for the 9months.
(ICSI cycle July/August 2016) OTD 10.08.2016 BFP
Baby boy born 30 March 2017
Low sperm c hubby
ICSI fresh cycle May ??

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Re: May 2WW

#41 Post by mollymartha » Sun May 26, 2019 10:19 am

aw Kelly my heart goes out to you, it really does a bfn is just such a dreadful sad feeling, its understandable you are so stressed that's hard to avoid beign stressed during the 2 week wait and testing time, if only we had it as easy and simple as most other ladies!! yes it does take a while to absorb it and believe it , you still want hope and its very hard to admit it is a definite bfn, I had exactly the same as you my first 2 iuis spotting to start so I knew all along, I had spotting a few days before otd the first 2 times it is just awful and so so hard to go through the 3rd iui otd was my birthday luckily af held off until 2 days after but I still knew all along as my clinic timed it so wrong I knew I had no chance right from the start thank you for your kind wishes for me, I know I have no chance this time my lining is too thick so ive just got to wait for af and as usual go from there! its ben lovely talking to you this cycle you have really really reassured me so so much its ben very exciting but stressful and you have always managed to calm me down I hope you stay on here and we can keep chatting with everyone else but I totally totally understand if you need a break from the forum,, I did take some time out inbetween treatments to have a bit of down time, grieve for what could have been and jut take a bit of time to heal , please keep in touch if you can, if not hug your son spend lots of precious time doing fun special things with him, and take a bit of time for yourself and him, you deserve another baby so much I truly hope it happens for you w all keep hoping for miracles not jut for ourselves but for everyone on her all of us want that miracle baby so much lets hope dreams really do come true how are you feeling today are you still spotting or no af yet have you retested its so awful isn't it! have you stopped taking the litunus? I never tested at home I was to nervous to wasn't confident I could do it right and found the idea far too upsetting my 3 iui package included the beta so I took that as they said I had to the 3rd time I didn't even bother! pointless as I already knew I just waited for af sending you lots of thoughts please be gentle on yourself when ivf works its an absolute miracle and just amazing when it doesn't its just awful so sad and so much loss, grief and hurt to cope with after so much stress its a lot to go through you aren't alone and we are here to listen x
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Re: May 2WW

#42 Post by shiru » Fri May 31, 2019 12:59 am

Hi ladies
May i join you?? I had FET on 23 May so otd is 5 June and it's so much harder this time around. I've a little boy 22 months on Monday and my last embie is snuggling nicely..

So sad to read about the recent bfn..be kind to yourselves and don't give up..this journey is so hard especially if your family and even close friends aren't aware of your challenges.. :( ..i feel all alone

All the best for those waiting to test over the next few days. Baby dust

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Re: May 2WW

#43 Post by mollymartha » Fri May 31, 2019 10:18 am

welcome along shiru! great to see you here ive often browsed the exercise thread cant join you on there as im not a runner / athlete in any sense!! lol i have one speed and that's it go slow and stop! lol i do like walking though and have done 2 London moonwalk marathons had to miss it this year due to stimming great you have made it to the 2 week wait! how are you feeling, i had my fresh et a day before you! im sorry you are finding it so much harder this time do you mean physically or the worry or both? it is so so tough especially if not many / no one knows its avery heavy secret to keep inwardly im so sorry to hear you feel so alone, you aren't alone on here theres always someone to listen here and i literally couldn't get through this journey so far without the forum its been a real lifeline wil you hang on til otd or test early cant believe your little boy is nearly 2!! wow! where does the time go?! sending you calm, gentle positive vibes for this cycle lets hope theres some lucky bfps soon on this thread x
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Re: May 2WW

#44 Post by shiru » Fri May 31, 2019 2:12 pm

Hey mollymartha
Thanks for your positive message. You sound upbeat which is needed for this journey. I think because I don't have anything else frozen I'm just finding it hard..
Oh yeah the exercise thread just grew and we all became really good supporters of each other. Not everyone on there is a runner and everyone was welcome to join. Very supportive ladies. They helped me through my previous 2 cycles. And Claire who started the thread has a little one..walking burns a lot of calories too. Are you London based then? I walk when I'm cycling instead of jogging...as long as you are active I find it's good for distressing..

My story is that I haven't fully shared my ivf journey with my family so they can't support me. Also although before I had a few more friends on board to pray with me. This time round I felt I didn't want to share as widely..so apart from the care boards, my best friend and 2 other close friends know..i didn't want to deal with all of the questions on how the cycle was progressing etc. I also think because the exercise thread had become my go to and now no longer active it's been hard to know where to turn. I was also working while cycling now I'm home with my son so there's a lot of time to think especially as we do everything together. Still I'm trying to distract myself

I'll wait till Wednesday what about You? Are you tempted? You have got long to go..3 sleeps
Thanks Molly Martha for your positive message x

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Re: May 2WW

#45 Post by mollymartha » Fri May 31, 2019 5:38 pm

hi shiru! nice to be able to chat to you, I really hope you aren't feeling quite so lonely now, I think the 2 week wait is on of the loneliest bits I loved the activeness of stimming so many scans appointments and you had the constant contact with the clinic and staff to reassure you at every step I really miss stimming and find this bit now much harder emotionally you feel kind of lost I miss the routine of injections and scans blood tests etc im glad you found my last message positive I personally haven't felt any hope at all or positive any of my cycles- dodgy trigger shot timings on my 3 iuis left me with no hope and im not feeling positive at al, but I hope I stay positive towards other ladies and try not to drag others down! I always always hold out hope for others yes that's totally understandable you feel more stress If its your only frozen one I can see the worry on top of the general worry of ivf you have extra pressure yes before I first visited my clinic last December- took me 6 years to pluck up the courage to go!!! I used to browse online for a few years researching iui for single women and I spent a long time just reading everyones stories not trying to be nosey lol just trying to get the confidence to approach a clinic and take that first step and everyones stories inspired me so much it gave the thoughts of yes maybe I can do this after all if others can why cant I, the exercise thread always seemed so friendly and welcoming and ran for so long it sounds like a very close knit tight group I never realised you didnt have to be a runner to join in lol or I would have! yes they sound hugely supportive and I remember being so amazed when Claire finally became a mummy just wonderful news wasn't it! shows you should never give up hope no im not london based myself, was born there but have lived down In kent all my life, I go to my base clinic for appointments blood tests scans etc In kent it is only 15 minutes walk from my day job and 20 minutes from my home by car/bus so its ideal they are all so lovely in there too its only a very small base clinic one dr 2 nurses a receptionist and the counselling nurse so they really are like a little family in there and get to know you very quickly and well I have to go to London for all procedures though so fir the iuis ec and et that's all at the main clinic In london about 1 hour 20 minutes by fast rain for me that's great you keep so active where do you get your energy from with a toddler too! I love walking too do you find you have been ok walking during cycling im scared to walk too far atm incase it starts af off! im sorry to hear you aren't able to have the support of family that must be hard, only my parents brother and one aunt know in my family I have also kept it secret from any other family members too but we aren't close an they aren't nearby that's understandable you wanted to keep things more private this time from friends but that does mean its extra hard for you to have the worry and stress all alone I have only told a few very close trusted friends who i I work with I have to say they have been fab nothing but supportive and many a time in work ive had a meltdown been in tears etc they have sorted me out picked me up and always got me laughing again its so so hard to keep a lid on it sometimes isnt it I try to hold the tear in but sometimes you just cant im so sorry you aren't able to lean on that support of close friends atm but atleast you haven't got to answer questions about how its gone etc so I hope that has reduced your stress in other ways that's real shame the excercise thread has wound down atm yes it must be very inward looking for you if you are at home all the time now with a lot of thinking time things do around and round in your head I bet! I hope your son can distract you enough to keep you busy and distracted enough to hang on in there til wednesday not too much longer now! no I wont be testing at home I never did on my iuis sounds silly but im too scared too im not confident to and find it too upsetting I just wait for af , for my iuis the beta was included in my package the first 2 iuis even though af was messing about already thy said take the beta anyway I already knew the result though! the 3rd iui my otd was my birthday which was just awful that time I just waited for af didn't even bother testing luckily af held off until 2 days after my birthday, I wont test at home this time either af is definitely imminent so no point! it wont hold off much longer now I already know its another bfn my 4th in 4 months im dreading it I should be used to them by now!! lol but I know it will be so upsetting and awful i think because its the first ivf and as you see that little embryo in the picture they give you it seems so much more special and poignant I will just wait for af and only take the beta if the clinic insist so I can stop the cyclogest, only ever used ic's to test out the trigger on my 3rd iui but I have never tested at home for a pregnancy such a wimp I know!! well I really hope you feel a bit more positive now theres always someone here to listen and chat to, ive found every cycle buddies and 2 week wait pages ive joined so friendly and welcoming im not even at a care clinic but everyone has welcomed me along and been so friendly and supportive huge good luck to you for Wednesday lets hope theres some bfs soon we have had a lot of sad bfns this thread which is so upsetting as we all share in it together and we are all sad at anyones bfn i hope you stay busy have fun with your son and hang on in there til next week it isn't a bfn til a test says so so theres stil every hope for you,you had your so so you know miracles do happen theres no reason why it cant happen again for you lots of ladies have more than one ivf child so it can happen more than once theres every hope and chance you will be one of those lucky ladies!
get sending out company, friendship and calm gentle wishes - oh and a bfp too!! x
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iui natural cycle jan 19 BFN
iui natural cycle feb 19 BFN
iui natural cycle feb 19 BFN

ivf#1 stimmed for 8 days, EC 17/05 12 eggs 10 fertilised 7 blastocysts ET 22/05 1 top grade blast 6 frozen blasts OTD 03/06

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