Testing obsessively!

[Lowlwatkins]

Hi I need some help!

This is my 4th FET, 1st one failed, 2nd ended in MC at 8 weeks, 3rd failed and now the 4th one I started testing from day 4, didn’t see a positive until day 7, it was really really faint you had to really stare at it to see it, I’m now 11dpt and the lines for darker day 8/9 and now haven’t progressed at all, they haven’t got lighter but their definatly not like they was from my 2nd transfer.
I know testing like this isn’t healthy, but I’m just so scared if I stop testing the lines are going to disappear! I’m just so terrified of having a chemical, I already have an early scan booked in at my EPU because of previous MC I was eligible to an early scan! But that’s not for another week and I honestly am just really struggling
Any body got any similar stories to help ease the nerves and I know there’s absolutely no telling what will happen and NOTHING will change the outcome but sometimes other stories help so much!

[StarGirl]

Hello! I couldn’t read this & ignore.

The anxiety around testing is REAL and the description of where you’re at was so so similar to me.

I had 1 transfer fail, 2nd miscarried at 10 weeks, 3rd failed (this messed me up a lot) and my 4th transfer worked and I have a beautiful baby to show for it.

Repeat testing is pointless - the lines will look different based on how much water intake you’ve had PLUS we both know from miscarriage that it can show positive when unfortunately the worst has happened.

Take the positive that this transfer has resulted in a positive test result - that’s amazing! You will now have the most anxious wait for the scan… and the next… and the next. I think I had a private scan every week from week 7 to 12 … and then one or two more. The best advice I can give is concentrate on today. This pregnancy is new & different, and today you’re pregnant.

It’s ok to feel anxious and for some days to feel like you’re going out of your mind with worry but it won’t change a thing. Look after yourself mentally & physically as much as you can xxx

[Lowlwatkins]

Ah thank you so much for replying!!!
Unfortunately I don’t think this is going to continue as a viable pregnancy! I had a HCG test done when I was 4 weeks and only came back at 27.7, had another HcG test yesterday and currently waiting the results!! I haven’t had any bleeding or spotting but I’m not getting my hopes up!!! But I have laid off of testing as nothing is going to change the outcome I know this!!! It’s just so hard in this beginning part not knowing what’s happening!! Just preying the hcg is higher today and that little bean keeps going!!!

[LucyAvalon]

Hi Lowlwatkins, saw you’d posted on here & just wanted to say I’ve seen many posts on other boards where hcg has been very low to start with and has progressed so keeping fingers crossed for your second blood results.
Did you manage to get Care to do the bloods or get them done elsewhere? Xx